I’ve had this conversation over, and over, and over again. It has, ever so increasingly begun to consume my thoughts.
I have no direction after college.
This is wholly new to me. I am left with nothing more than to trust Him. I think that I thought it would keep going… but it doesn’t. The real world happens. I’m going to graduate and I have no direction. None. I desire to go to grad school- but where? My heart is torn. Do I go somewhere that I know guarantees a solid foundation, or do I take the challenge, be the “conservative” (loosely speaking- certainly not “conservative looking”) among my liberal brothers & sisters in the faith? Can I decipher between truth and lies disguised as such? Will I place my identity on my ability to do well academically, seeing very little of the Gospel within the context of what I’m learning “about Him”? Will I ever be able to master the changing of lenses (academic/devotional) or will they get muddled and confused?
I don’t know which direction I’m headed. Do I trust Him? (what does that look like?)
to most I sound like a broken record, I desire wisdom from my peers, and yet ultimately I know that it is God whose opinion I must seek. Part of me is afraid that I don’t desire what He desires for my future.
